Here are this weeks stats:
4/2-4/8
SW: 220 (12/12/11)
CW: 196.4 (.8 lbs)
Calories burned from exercise: 2512
Miles ran/jogged/walked/biked: 4.69
Avg Calories per day: 1511
85-120oz water daily
Where do I start? I know why the numbers are where they are so let me go back and review this week so you can see it also. Monday started out hectic with my kids and that carried over until about 9:30 and then I realized that the weekend that my husband has planned for us to go see his family is the same as my first 5K. I know its just a race but this really rocked my world seeing as it was my biggest goal and now I was having to give it up. It was almost like I just gave up all together but was still trying to hold to a part of it because this was suppose to be the new me. Monday night I had lots of chocolate, Tuesday-Thursday just consisted of random eating and larger portions. Friday was my worst day in 5 months, consisting of overeating on fruit at lunch, having a dinner (tortilla turkey roll up & lots of wheat thins) on the go in the car and then 2 slices of pizza when I got home from taking the girls to their dads. Saturday wasn't much better, I worked out in my flower beds for several hours and then we went to Chili's and I had half a basket of chips with my light chicken sandwich. Sunday was not to bad until I ran into the chocolate dish again and then consumed more chocolate. My husband has been asked to have all the chocolate removed from the house before I get home today. Did I mention that I only went to the gym twice last week? I also didn't do my 60 sec desk workout but a handful of times last week. Do you see the pattern of this week?
After thinking about how much I lost control of myself last week and praying for God to give me renewed willpower, strength and guidance this morning it was made very clear to me where my problem was. I wasn't asking for His help anymore, I had gotten to big for my britches so to speak. I don't think I talked to God about giving me strength or shinning through me in my journey even once last week. I asked myself several times why I was doing what I was doing or why couldn't I get a hold of myself. To be honest, I was getting to comfortable in my own ways and not asking the Lord what His way was for me. I had taken it upon myself to think I had my addictions and bad habits under control.
Do you see the problem in this? It was all about ME and not about HIM!
How many times have I learned this same lesson before in different areas of my life? Will I ever stop forgetting it? I am thankful that I have a God that is gracious enough to show me my ways and guide me in the right direction AGAIN. I can almost see him standing over me saying, "Ok my child if you think you can handle this on your own I will let you and I will be here when you come back to me for help." We are like stubborn teenagers, we think we know whats best and we can handle any situation without our parents help but we usually end up making a bigger mess of things and then needing them to help us clean it up.
My prayer this week is for God to show me daily that with Him I will always be better off and heading in a better direction and to renew my fire to serve Him.
"With man this is impossible, with God all things are possible." Matthew 19:26
Mini goal for last week: Run 2.5 miles on at least 2 days.~~Incomplete
After thinking about how much I lost control of myself last week and praying for God to give me renewed willpower, strength and guidance this morning it was made very clear to me where my problem was. I wasn't asking for His help anymore, I had gotten to big for my britches so to speak. I don't think I talked to God about giving me strength or shinning through me in my journey even once last week. I asked myself several times why I was doing what I was doing or why couldn't I get a hold of myself. To be honest, I was getting to comfortable in my own ways and not asking the Lord what His way was for me. I had taken it upon myself to think I had my addictions and bad habits under control.
Do you see the problem in this? It was all about ME and not about HIM!
How many times have I learned this same lesson before in different areas of my life? Will I ever stop forgetting it? I am thankful that I have a God that is gracious enough to show me my ways and guide me in the right direction AGAIN. I can almost see him standing over me saying, "Ok my child if you think you can handle this on your own I will let you and I will be here when you come back to me for help." We are like stubborn teenagers, we think we know whats best and we can handle any situation without our parents help but we usually end up making a bigger mess of things and then needing them to help us clean it up.
My prayer this week is for God to show me daily that with Him I will always be better off and heading in a better direction and to renew my fire to serve Him.
"With man this is impossible, with God all things are possible." Matthew 19:26
Mini goal for last week: Run 2.5 miles on at least 2 days.~~Incomplete
Mini goal for this week: Renewed desire to serve the Lord through my Journey.
NSV this week:
- Was able to see an old friend and see how excited she was about seeing me and how my journey is helping her.
- Was reminded of how great my need for the Lord's guidance is.
This is how my week went, how was yours? Did you have a weight loss or maybe a NSV?
"We rejoice in our sufferings, knowing that suffering produces endurance, and endurance produces hope, and hope does not put us to shame, because God's love has been poured into our hearts through the Holy Spirit who has been given to us. " Romans 3-5
Jamie
You are right it is not about me, myself, It is about what God can do through me and His glory. I think that is my problem currently too not relying on his strength but my own.
ReplyDeleteYou know it's really hard because through this process I think we are told that we need to focus on ourselves, put ourselves first but really we should be putting God first and then we don't have to worry about those little things because he will work them out.
AMEN!! If we would just continue to do this then we wouldn't fail and be defeated all the time.
Deletewhat an inspirational post. thank you. a lesson I often forget myself.
ReplyDeleteI have so been through this before. These are the learning weeks that will help you make it through to the end. Hang in there! :)
ReplyDelete"We are like stubborn teenagers, we think we know whats best and we can handle any situation without our parents help but we usually end up making a bigger mess of things and then needing them to help us clean it up. "
ReplyDeleteI think that's a terrific explanation of how much of a struggle getting on the right path - for fitness, for health, for life in general - can be.
Good luck with week 3!
You are so very right!! Thankyou for that reminder!!!!
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