Friday, May 13, 2011

Peace within me

Finding peace within yourself is sometimes a hard thing to do when you have life going all directions all around you. Finding peace from God is where you really get the peace you are looking for.

Several things have happened in the last two weeks that I have wanted to blog about or just simply journal but as usual this is the last thing on my list to do so it hasn't been getting done.

These things are the stones on the path way that God has created for my family and I. If I sat down and thought it threw I could probably do an entire map of how every TRIAL In the past has lead me to the BLESSINGS that He continues to give us today.

Just a little glimpse into the AWESOMENESS of my GOD..........

*God made it clear to us two weeks ago that he had a better plan for us and it was time to leave my current job, with no directions or a GPS mind you (except for His word).

*6 days later I was offered a job without me even actually looking with a local company. If you don't already know, I have a 160 mile round trip drive to my current job. So this is definitely an answer to some serious prayers!!

*I am continually humbled by others that God has made a part of my life in the way that they live their lives!

*There are an amazing few ladies that I love being able to call friends. I prayed for so long for true, real,
meaningful friendships and He has given me the friendships I need at the right time.

Tonight at Mom's @ Central we each shared a few Blessings in our life and it is just amazing to see how GREAT our God is.

He carried the weight of almost 29 years worth of sin on the cross that day for me. I am just so thankful for the Love that he gives me every day!

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Tuesday, May 3, 2011

Burning Love

I keep listening to the Hillsong United "Like an Avalanche" and it just keeps speaking to me. The love that I feel for God is more now than it has ever been. How do you explain the burning love in your heart for a wonderful God to someone that doesnt feel it but knows that it does exist? I have to keep reminding myself that my explanantion may not be the lamp unto the path of those questioning the burning love I have. I know whats in my heart, I know why I feel that extra glow inside my spirit. Its not because of something or someones actions in my life. Its because I have an amazing Father that loves me and will always keep His promises to me.

I think of how much I love my husband. my children, parents, grandparents, extended family, friends and the list goes on but I still cant even imagine having the burning inside of me that I have for God. That is what this life is about, the purpose of my life is to serve a God big enough to handle it all. Do you trust Him to handle it for you?

Beautiful God
Laying Your majesty aside
You reached out in love to show me life
Lifted from darkness into light
King for a slave
Trading Your righteousness for shame
Despite all my pride and foolish ways
Caught in Your infinite embrace
And I find myself here on my knees again
Caught up in grace like an avalanche
Nothing compares to this love love love
Burning in my heart
Saviour and Friend
Breathing Your life into my heart
Your word is the lamp unto my path
Forever I'm humbled by Your love
Take my life
Take all that I am
With all that I am I will love You
Take my heart
Take all that I have
Jesus how I adore You
And I find myself here on my knees again
Caught up in grace like an avalanche
Nothing compare to this love love love


Like an Avalanche

Did I hear Him right?

I have spent the last several months having headaches daily with migraines added into the mix every 7-10 days. I have had medical testing done that has come up short of a diagnosis and taken different preventive medications as well with no outcomes.

Guess what it took to diagnosis them? God! Did you see that one coming? You should have, I should have, but I wasn't looking to God for answers only for healing from my suffering. This was completely stupid of me considering I know how BIG my God is. Well after all was said and done and my ways didn't work I did what most of us do and I turned to God to answer the basic question of why?

Of course the answer that he gave me scared the living day lights out of me at first and I thought to my self surely I am hearing Him wrong. "He wants me to quit my job?" Me, who is the primary source of income since my husband is a full time student. Really....that's when panic 101 set in.

But you know what, after several days in prayer, scripture and discussion with other spiritual individuals I decided that's exactly what He wants from me and my family. He wants me to have Faith in Him with everything in my life. This is my free falling step out of the airplane without a parachute and I know that my God is gonna be there to catch me. I don't know what he has in store for my family but I know its going to be great, I am his child and he only wants great things for His children.

The biggest lesson that I have learned through this is that none of the things that you work so hard for daily are going to be yours in 75 or 100 years, they may not even be your childrens, these things are vanity. What will stick are the values and lessons that we teach and instill in our children now and until the time we meet our Father. Working away my days and being sorrowful at the end of the day is not what my family deserves from me. I want more for them and they deserve more from me. God is now giving them more and I am ever thankful for that.

We have prayed about my job situation for over a year and his answer has completely changed my heart and humbled and amazed me on so many different levels.

There is no remembrance of former things, nor will there be any remembrance of later things yet to be among those who come after. Eccles 1:11

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