Tuesday, May 15, 2012

Getting Directions for the Journey

Its 9:30, workout, dinner and baths are done so I am now sitting down to some quiet time with my blog. I have so many things that I feel like God is working on for and with me. Some of them I am ready to share and others I am keeping to myself for now. So here goes.
I know God has a plan for me and he is preparing me every day for that plan. For me it is hard to be patient because I want to know now what He wants for me. I have an idea of what He wants for me its just the getting there that kills me. I may be totally wrong in my thoughts for where he is leading me because it has happened before. But I know that looking back over the last 2 years I have been through some really hard situations and struggles but He has brought me through all of them and I am able to look back and say "I can see what you were doing all along". Does that make sense? I have said several times on my blog that I know I would not be exactly where I am today if one of the stones in my path would have been missing or different.

I have been on this journey to a healthy me for a little over 5 months now and these are the kinds of things I have been hearing a lot lately.

How are you able to do that? How can you stay so disciplined? Dont you want to eat real food? Are you going to be able to keep up with this diet as a lifestyle? Doesnt it get boring? I have never seen someone as dedicated as you. What keeps you motivated? How did you find the courage to post on your blog and start a facebook page? I dont know how you can workout every day like you do.

At first I was kind of embarassed by these questions and statements until I realized if I am changing and people are noticing then maybe thats a good thing. I have always been the kind of person to want to help others and fix there problems for them. I want you to be the best possible and if I am able to help with that then I am 100% committed. Sometimes I bite off more than I can chew with this character trait but it is so rewarding in the end. I say all of that to say this, what if God wants me to help others live a healthy lifestyle? Im not talking about being a personal trainer or nutrionalist but more of a coach or a partner. It seems kind of like a long shot but the more I keep praying about it and asking God to reveal to me what it is He has for me I keep coming back to this in some form or fashion.

I was your typical american wife, mother, daughter, employee and friend with all the same responsibilites as most women. I had gotten to a point in my life where I was so unhappy the only thing that I craved and turned to was food. Which is what most Americans do and why the obesity rate is so high. I just wanted to be happy and food did that. No matter where or with who I could be happy with food. I know how hard it is to make good choices. I know how tempting parties, fellowship meetings, dinners out with friends or family can be. Its an addiction. I 100% believe this and I 100% believe that no matter what you think you are capable of over coming, God is capable of giving you what you need most to conquer ANY addiction. If you dont believe me, feel free to message me and I will give you story after story about how God has freed me from the bondage of so many things in my life.

To answer the questions and statements that I have been getting so much of lately, its God, its always God. 6 months ago I would have laughed in your face if you would have told me that I would have self control, discipline, drive or the desire to be healthy like I have today. I am constantly getting reminders of why I made the decision to become a healthy me and I love the affirmation that shows. I dont know exactly what He wants from me but I know that I am willing and so does He so he is using me.

I may not fit into your box. I may not be ministering to others the way you would, but I am ministering to others in the way God has shown me. God uses all kinds of things to get our attention and make us listen. I dont really know what it was for me besides looking in the mirror and realizing I wasnt who God asked me to be.

For now, I will keep doing what I am doing and see where it leads me. It may be in a totally opposite direction from where I think but at least I may be able to help others out along the way.

I have a few other things in my life that we are really praying about and asking God for wisdom and direction on, so if you will pray that we are open to His answers.

"I may not what the future holds, but I know who holds the future."



  1. I am so proud if you Jamie. I feel like even though we live many miles apart we are bonded in friendship & God:)

    1. Thanks Michelle! I love how God always seemd to put us with the ones we need for just the right encouragement and support.

  2. You are amazing and I am so very proud of you!!!!! I will join you in prayer for the decisions coming up! :)

  3. Wonderful post. Did you say you've read "Made to Crave"? I know that sometimes in sharing the gospel with folks I can allude to my weight loss journey and share with them the truth you spoke "God is capable of giving you what you need most to conquer ANY addiction"

    Keep up the good work, Jamie! Your life is a testimony to the power of God and I love reading about it on your blog.

    1. I have read MTC and I loved it! I plan on getting the devotional at some point. I actually think I may start reading it again soon. :) Thank you for the encouragement. It really does help to keep me going on the days that I doubt my efforts.