Guess what it took to diagnosis them? God! Did you see that one coming? You should have, I should have, but I wasn't looking to God for answers only for healing from my suffering. This was completely stupid of me considering I know how BIG my God is. Well after all was said and done and my ways didn't work I did what most of us do and I turned to God to answer the basic question of why?
Of course the answer that he gave me scared the living day lights out of me at first and I thought to my self surely I am hearing Him wrong. "He wants me to quit my job?" Me, who is the primary source of income since my husband is a full time student. Really....that's when panic 101 set in.
But you know what, after several days in prayer, scripture and discussion with other spiritual individuals I decided that's exactly what He wants from me and my family. He wants me to have Faith in Him with everything in my life. This is my free falling step out of the airplane without a parachute and I know that my God is gonna be there to catch me. I don't know what he has in store for my family but I know its going to be great, I am his child and he only wants great things for His children.
The biggest lesson that I have learned through this is that none of the things that you work so hard for daily are going to be yours in 75 or 100 years, they may not even be your childrens, these things are vanity. What will stick are the values and lessons that we teach and instill in our children now and until the time we meet our Father. Working away my days and being sorrowful at the end of the day is not what my family deserves from me. I want more for them and they deserve more from me. God is now giving them more and I am ever thankful for that.
We have prayed about my job situation for over a year and his answer has completely changed my heart and humbled and amazed me on so many different levels.
There is no remembrance of former things, nor will there be any remembrance of later things yet to be among those who come after. Eccles 1:11
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